My Love for Army Men but why I’d never Marry one.

-The 14 year old me stands beside an ice-cream truck, relishing each and every stroke of the smooth tantalizing chocolate fudge; giving me a temporary relief from the heat. I’m discussing about the upcoming Biology exam when a large convoy of huge trucks pass us by. I get distracted by the sound and see them heading towards the highway. I stare at them until they vanish in the bent.

I forget about it- I’m 14, seriously what did you expect?

-I’m 15 and I stand next to my mother in the parent-teacher meet. I’m focusing on the critical mistakes in my term paper when a majestic man, wearing his army uniform in full glory, all festooned with various shining medals and badges enters my class, followed by my classmate. I mentally give him a standing ovation.

-I’m 16 and I’m sitting in a cafe and I hear giggles somewhere afar. I glance up and see these two little adorable girls being led by their father who was wearing his army uniform, the two girls fight over who’s gonna order and who’s going to ‘spoon-feed’ their daddy ice-cream as I sit and watch that beautiful family.


-The 18 year old me drives to college and gives pass to an Army truck; laden with handsome army men, their gaze eerily affixed on the road, all mature and dark.

Somewhere inside my heart aches for their families and I take a mental note I’d never marry an Army man. I confess that this decision is for myself. I get crippled in fear thinking that while I’m here ranting on WordPress there is a man on the border putting his life at stake.

I admit, I’m a coward. I’m timid, selfish and hate myself for running away from the pain. I’d rather stay away from an army man than enjoy his company because I’m incapable of surviving the lack of surety for their survival.

Plainly stating, why I’d never marry or get extremely close to a military man is that even though there are thousands of females who are bravely living with the fear of losing their loved ones, I’m not one of them, I won’t be able to bear the distance, the feel that we’re miles apart.

Having long distance is and having long distance with the life of the other partner at stake is a completely different scenario. I don’t know how other women handle it, the constant fear that their partner might not return someday. I shiver at the thought. I’ve always admired these men in shining armor and their reunions with their families fills my heart with so much pain and love.

I could never do that. I don’t have that strength. If in any case I happen to get acquainted with a military man I’d either join the army myself and accompany him to the border or make him quit his job, as simple as that-again I admit, that’s downright selfish. And so I pray I never fall in love or get emotionally close to any military man because they’re the purest form of selflessness and love and again I say, I’m a chicken, I have a weakness for love and I cannot do anything about it other than running away and hoping not to ever face it in my life.

So this for all those brave men out there, armies of every country, soldiers of any race, the very form of courage, valor and humanity, those who’re standing tall and serving without expectations, the very portrait of sheer patriotism- we respect and love you equally.

A wholehearted Thank You to you glorified beings for existing and taking the vow to protect us and your motherland.


14 thoughts on “My Love for Army Men but why I’d never Marry one.

  1. I read this several times and you like most people want to hold onto their loved ones, care for them, protect them, shield them from the worlds evils but that’s not reality. Accidents happen outside of war, people get sick and people internally suffer and end their lives. I know you are aware of all this because you’re intelligent but when it comes to matters of the heart it’s not possible to escape. We are all much stronger than we believe ourselves to be. You will find your strength when it’s needed. The great thing about being human is that we have the power to heal and love again and again as well a the capacity to love in different ways.


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    • All right, you caught me. I know it sounds ridiculous and fairly possessive of me but I really am like that. Once I get emotionally attached to someone/something, it’s very hard for me to let go. But you’re absolutely right, the world is not a wish-granting factory.

      I hope I can find the strength that lies within me to learn to love someone even if you have to let him/her go for his/her own good. Thank you for that wonderful comment.
      Bless your heart.
      Aakansha. 🙂

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  2. I came from family serving nation in Army & Navy,believe me its always a proud feeling since we all are human bieng its obvious to live with our own fears but you became fearless for sure if u’ll ever come close in touch with them.

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    • Ohh, then you must totally relate to what I wrote. I, thankfully don’t have any acquaintance in the army. It’s nice to know you’re all very proud and I’m extremely proud as well.
      Yeah, I’m hoping to overcome my fears and insecurities.
      Thank you for reading. 🙂

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      • I think he is right. I agree with you on the post. Word to word. But only after having lived in close proximity to such life. Not directly, but indirectly via friends and family friends. And bit of schooling. However, friends have chosen the life gladly…all females. I guess you need to know that world first hand at least once. Then it is your call.

        BTW…love this honest post. Keep writing!


  3. First of all, I appreciate your honesty and your candor, but you can call me crazy if you wish (I won’t take offence) because I have this mental picture of you in the future, happily married to a military man, and raising a couple of army brats who make you laugh every day at how you could ever have thought that there could possibly have been any other choice for your future. I only say this because of your obvious interest, and apparent (albeit innocent) attraction to men in uniform. But whatever your future brings, I hope it brings you great joy and satisfaction.

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    • Hahahaha, your comment gave me a giggle. 😀

      Now when I re-read your comment I find it peculiarly amazing at how well you just transformed the fearful picture I harbored of life with an Army man.

      But still the thought gives me chills. I don’t know what’s wrong. You’re absolutely right, I AM pulled towards army men and at the same time I don’t want to. It’s so confusing!

      Thank you so much. You’re a wonderful soul.


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