I stared at my salary today. Yes, I stared at it for at least 10 minutes. And in those 10 minutes I drifted back to the year 2001 and found this little girl with a pony-tale, balancing on her toes; desperately trying to catch a glance of the succulent candies wrapped in shiny, comely packets.  She can see boxes, cylindrical boxes full of glimmering wrappers of chocolates and her eyes twinkle at the view. She looks at her mom pleadingly and her mom hands her as many candies as her little palms could hold.

She made her day.

That little girl was I.

Today I could buy as many boxes of candies as I can, but I don’t want to. When I was a little girl, I promised myself that when I grow up and have my own money I’m going to buy all these friggin chocolates and candies.

This thought struck me as lightening. It’s amazing isn’t it? How priorities change over time. How 10 years back a little square of chocolate could have made my day, and a new set of crayons made me gleam with pride, but today I have so many things I wish for and even though I can go and purchase everything I ever wanted when I was a little girl- I WON’T.

I’m still staring at those bills.

It’s a little hard to register how we no longer whine for an ice-cream every time we pass by an ice-cream truck or pass by a balloon man and yearn for one. We no more get delighted when our paper plane makes it successfully across the room .. hell we don’t even make a paper plane now. We no more get giddy when we graciously receive the return gift in a birthday party- or wait, when was the last time we had a birthday that was not celebrated in a restaurant or a club?

PRIORITIES are crazy. How everything changed from toy-phones to I-Phones and from bicycles to bikes- I’ll never understand. How now when we say APPLE we think of the brand rather than the fruit and how that little apple with a bite scrunched away has become a symbol for status in society.

A thought:

Why is it that when I was 4 years old, everything I ever wanted was candies and Santa and stickers and every single rupee I ever got was spent in requesting my mom to buy me the aforementioned delights. And when I had those, I never wanted anything more. But today, my desire for things is endless.

When earlier I used to jump with joy over a 1 rupee coin I accidentally found rummaging through my backpack; I no longer get joyous when I receive an income or pocket-money. Somehow it isn’t enough.

Why don’t I desire for candies now when I can buy as many as I want? Why the idea of what more can be bought appeals to me more? MORE- Why do I want more?

I wonder that in the coming years when I’m all grown up with a proper job and a considerable income, would I ever look back to this day when I was staring at my bills wondering why I don’t desire for candies any more?

Would my so called income seem very meager at that point? Would I have fulfilled everything I ever wanted when I was 18? Or did mankind create more ‘desires’ and gadgets and standards to adhere to?

The more we have; the more we want.

To all those who’re stable, are earning, and happy with their lives,


12 thoughts on “PRIORITIES

  1. Not to, you know rub this in your face (oh who am I kidding: I’m still a kid! nyah nyah nyah nyah nyah! *does the irish jig*), but when i was a kid (well, younger than right now) I always did want to roll down the car windows all the way during the winters but mum never let me ’cause I would catch a cold, which would leave me extra allergic to allergens, resulting in 3 weeks of near non-stop sneezing, but now I don’t have to ask anymore, and I still marvel at that fact every time I press the button 😛
    though in keeping with what you said, i no longer carry around my coins like some sort of pirate treasure…In fact, I’ve even stopped judiciously collecting them…that does make me a teensy bit depressed

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    • I admit, there ARE few things, a few habits we cannot seem to get rid of since they’re so imbibed in us. For me, I still get giddy when I buy a new toothbrush. (Yeah-laugh all you want). 😛
      I know, right? Sometimes I too feel sad for all the awesome habits and weird fascinations I carried within myself. Growing up is hard. :\

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    • I totally feel you. Even though I started earning like 2 months back, I’m already having troubles adapting to the new changes in my life.


  2. I still remember the day i got my first salary and a lengthy wishlist of getting everything..presently earning more than twice provided the length of wishlist yet not reached to its end.In brief your desires will never meet with end & candy changes with time.

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  3. I think you are very insightful. Me, I’ve finally reached this point where I realize the things I want have no price tag on them, but cost more than anything I’ve ever purchased in my life, or maybe I should say, they’re WORTH more than anything I’ve ever purchased in my life, but don’t cost money, and now, they’re pretty much the only things I really want.

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